Spies, Lies, and a Fathers Return

Things continue to be busy, as my lack of posting may imply. There seems to be an outbreak of disease amount our food source and it is causing some panic withing our society. I was concerned that I might have contracted one disease but thorough cleansing and awareness seems to have prevented me from getting ill. Although it is making it difficult to eat trying to avoid the ill. As if this were not enough, there is a group of film makers trying to make a documentary on the group that I belong to. They are bugging our social gatherings and intruding on our private meetings. I believe some of the others, that are more capable, will be convincing them that it is in their best interest to leave us alone.

Our local LS faction seem to be growing in number. It is interesting to watch them scurry about. They recently have discovered a faction member that insulted our local community had returned and lied about insulting us.

I am also please that my mentor has returned from his journey. He seems to have rediscovered his core self and is now returning to our group with fresh eyes. I hope that I can live up to his legacy. He has done so much and deserves respect.

I will try to keep updated more frequently.

The Hostess and the Tides of Change

Things have been busy lately. With the absence of my guardian, I have been declared acknowledged by my new kin. I am now solely responsible for my actions. This in itself concerns me little, as previously my actions reflected heavily on my guardian and I did not wish to bring him shame, or incur his wrath. He was a good teacher, and I hope that everything is well with him. I don't know when I will see him again, but I do hope I get the chance to thank him for his trust and teachings.

Since my guardian was also our leader, we have elected a new leader who hails from another sect within our society. He is more traditional in his beliefs but has place several more modern citizens at his side. This seem to show that he is open to govern in a way that fits the old way but not one that leaves out new ideas. I have been asked to be Master of Elysium or "hostess" for our peaceful gatherings. I am eager to give back into the society that has given me refuge and rescued me from an unimaginable fate.

Although we have a leader who seems to trust the more modern and free members of our society, I understand that there are aspects that will be more strict and rigid. I also feel that with the shift in power that there are those that will be trying to find their place in the new structure. This may cause them to lash out in public or privately to bring shame and dishonor to others in order to advance their own agenda. This causes me great agitation since I am so young and may appear to be an easy target. Also, my companion that is under my care may also be in danger. They are more likely to lash out at him to bring disrespect to me. I understand that now is a potentially volatile time in developing my place in our society and it is imperative that I think clearly and tread lightly but with purpose.

Parties and Doom

At Saturday evenings "party", I mingled a small amount. Sister McGrath seems a little to eager to help me out. I mentioned how annoyed I was that people kept disappearing on me, either physically or supernaturally, and that I needed to learn how to see people who could do that. She eagerly offered to help... I think I will talk to Randall instead.

I did get the answer a question I had about why the Sean Tsu was wandering off with everyone in the domain. It seems the he is looking for evidence and testimony against Saphira. Even if I had information on Saphira, I am not sure I would divulge it. At least not to the Invictus. What little I do know of the situation happened many months ago with another less than trust worthy person.

I am thankful that Alan forced me to learn how to handle a gun. It seemed rather silly at first, but he insisted. Getting mauled by a wolf is not fun, in any condition. I do wonder what exactly I am doing. What kind of person will I become if I continue to act out in this fashion?

1 year

It is hard to believe that 1 year has passed since my rescued with this curse upon me. I find that mostly my condition has been a mere inconvenience. It is easy enough to adjust my lifestyle to accommodate the newly acquired sun allergy. The diet restrictions were the hardest to accept, but that too is becoming more natural. Things that I would have never thought were possible I am finding I am able to doing with some amount of ease.

Just as my world starts to resemble something close to 'normal' I find myself with out my guardian close at hand for the first time since my rebirth. Granted, I have probably relied on his protection more than I should have, but then I try to keep a low profile, as much as I can. I feel powerless in the company of those that have felt the loss of the days longer than I have. I have taken steps to align with a group of individuals that I have some level of common interest with. I believe that with my guardian unavailable that this may be in my best course of action.

Recently I have given into the rage that dwells inside of me losing all control over myself and my desires. I have been rather reluctant to embrace the true nature of what I am, but it may be a little more necessary to accept the side affects of this condition and learn to control myself better. Knowing the true nature of the things I can do can help me to better understand how to control it.