At Saturday evenings "party", I mingled a small amount. Sister McGrath seems a little to eager to help me out. I mentioned how annoyed I was that people kept disappearing on me, either physically or supernaturally, and that I needed to learn how to see people who could do that. She eagerly offered to help... I think I will talk to Randall instead.
I did get the answer a question I had about why the Sean Tsu was wandering off with everyone in the domain. It seems the he is looking for evidence and testimony against Saphira. Even if I had information on Saphira, I am not sure I would divulge it. At least not to the Invictus. What little I do know of the situation happened many months ago with another less than trust worthy person.
I am thankful that Alan forced me to learn how to handle a gun. It seemed rather silly at first, but he insisted. Getting mauled by a wolf is not fun, in any condition. I do wonder what exactly I am doing. What kind of person will I become if I continue to act out in this fashion?
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
1 year
It is hard to believe that 1 year has passed since my rescued with this curse upon me. I find that mostly my condition has been a mere inconvenience. It is easy enough to adjust my lifestyle to accommodate the newly acquired sun allergy. The diet restrictions were the hardest to accept, but that too is becoming more natural. Things that I would have never thought were possible I am finding I am able to doing with some amount of ease.
Just as my world starts to resemble something close to 'normal' I find myself with out my guardian close at hand for the first time since my rebirth. Granted, I have probably relied on his protection more than I should have, but then I try to keep a low profile, as much as I can. I feel powerless in the company of those that have felt the loss of the days longer than I have. I have taken steps to align with a group of individuals that I have some level of common interest with. I believe that with my guardian unavailable that this may be in my best course of action.
Recently I have given into the rage that dwells inside of me losing all control over myself and my desires. I have been rather reluctant to embrace the true nature of what I am, but it may be a little more necessary to accept the side affects of this condition and learn to control myself better. Knowing the true nature of the things I can do can help me to better understand how to control it.
Just as my world starts to resemble something close to 'normal' I find myself with out my guardian close at hand for the first time since my rebirth. Granted, I have probably relied on his protection more than I should have, but then I try to keep a low profile, as much as I can. I feel powerless in the company of those that have felt the loss of the days longer than I have. I have taken steps to align with a group of individuals that I have some level of common interest with. I believe that with my guardian unavailable that this may be in my best course of action.
Recently I have given into the rage that dwells inside of me losing all control over myself and my desires. I have been rather reluctant to embrace the true nature of what I am, but it may be a little more necessary to accept the side affects of this condition and learn to control myself better. Knowing the true nature of the things I can do can help me to better understand how to control it.
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